Maturity.

Most of my friends and I are growing apart, and for awhile, I was devastated. I wanted everything to go back to the way it was senior year, and I couldn't let go.

Now, though, I think I'm ready. I'm not so much a different person as I am an improved version of my old self, and none of this improvement would be taking place if not for my new friends. Of course I will always love and be grateful to my old friends, but I don't rely on them like I used to do.

I'm ready to let go.

I'm ready to move on with my life.

Love you guys,
Madalyn

Saturn must have been an awesome dude,

seeing as the day named after him is always AWESOME.

I'm going to start importing some of my favorite posts from Xanga. That shall be fun!

Today, I gave Christian J. and his girlfriend a tour of UTC. That was interesting. It wasn't quite as awkward as I anticipated, for which I was very, very grateful. I am curious as to how he got my number, because I'm pretty sure I never gave it to him.

I don't know what I'm going to do for the rest of today. I was supposed to go to a (black) club with Kelley tonight (Purple Panty discount?), but I spent all my money going to the movies last night.

Can I just rant for a minute? Please? Okay, thanks.
Why do my friends insist on doing stuff that requires money? Aren't we supposed to be poor college students? It really wasn't necessary to go see I Love You, Man last night. We have plenty of movies here, and two televisions to choose from, yet I had to spend all of my emergency money on a stupid movie that wasn't even that great (more on that later). Seriously, if you're going to hang out with me and insist of spending a bunch of money, you better be prepared to help pay for me. I'm a fan of free fun, the kind that involves random adventures and wandering around the city. You don't need money to go to the riverfront, and I always have so much fun down there! I am just feeling very, very frustrated by my lack of money AND my friends' insistence upon spending money I don't have.

So, we covered:

• My day so far
• Plans for tonight
• Money rant

I think that's pretty much it.

Kiss me thru the phone.

My roommates and I get along so fabulously, and I'm so grateful.


I'm so blessed. Really. I still can't believe everything God has given me. And I'm so, so, so grateful.


"You know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight
But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone"
Cutest song (and video) ever.


♥♥♥

Eeeeeee I love Bones so much!!



SO DELISH.
I love this show way too much. ^_^



I am really sad, though, my headphones died. I've had to go without anything for a couple days so far, but my mommy's sending me some. :)


WOOOO. I've become a very happy person. :D

WIN.

Okay, I feel bad putting videos in my blog and stuff, but this. . . This is beautiful.
I couldn't let you people go a day without watching it.

See more funny videos and Music Videos at Today's Big Thing.

I've fallen pretty far behind at keeping this thing updated. I either get too busy or just don't feel like updating. It's usually the first one

I am officially POOR.
I went grocery shopping with Kelley yesterday, and all I could afford was bread, jelly, popsicles, and strawberry Fanta. That is my food for the next two weeks. HOORAY. I really don't mind, it's kinda fun. Plus, with this whole not-eating-as-much thing. . . I've noticed a difference in the way my body looks. I feel better, more confident, when my stomach's empty. Maybe that's psychologically unhealthy, but I don't care. At least I don't want to kill myself anymore.

I'LL EAT YOU UP, SO YUM YUM!!

Last night, Aaron and I decided that there really are not many hot Asian men. It was sad. We even searched Google Images for some Mongoloid hotties, but there were none to be found. I guess I'm not going to Asia any time soon!

I love everyone and everything.

first day of spring.

Click to see it. :)

The view from Lookout Mountain is one of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen.

I had so much fun last night. I love my friends. :)

The time I want to return to.

I miss my cousins, Sam and Bailey, so badly. :(

Nothin' like some Jesus time.

I went to The House this evening, and I feel so much better.

I'm still worried. I'm still terrified.
But I no longer feel out of control, because I know God is in control.

I'm handing my life back to Him. I've been trying to steer this Porsche that I thought was my life, and it turns out I've been driving a VW Transporter on the wrong side of the road. So I'm returning the steering wheel to God, who actually knows what He's doing.


I thinking things can only get better from here.

Do I ever stop?

• Not really.
  
  I dyed part of my hair pink today, and I really like it. :)
  Kayla had a ton of dye left over, so she asked if Kelley and I wanted to use it, so. . . We did!
  
  
  
  I went to The House tonight, and I feel really great now. I'm happy, and I love God, and all that other good stuff.
  Oh, and at the end they played this awesome remix, and I was dying to know what it was, so the guys in the back were nice and gave it to me. :)
  
  

  

  

  
  Africa - Cryzp
  
  Happy Saint Patrick's Day, y'all.

One reason I love my Anthro professor.

"When you return, well rested and thirsting for knowledge (not Miller Lite), we'll continue with band law and order, with an emphasis on why the Yanomamo are so warlike. Something on that is possible in class.

Be safe."

Cracks me up.

Hooray for old friends! :)



I love these people with all my heart.

Here's to the crazy ones. Namely, me.

Here's to the crazy ones.
The misfits. The rebels.
The troublemakers. The round
pegs in the square holes - the
ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules and
they have no respect for
the status quo. You can praise
them, disagree with them,
quote them, disbelieve them,
glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing that you
can't do is ignore them.
Because they change things.

- Jack Kerouac

I had a very, very interesting day.
It started horribly, with me waking up at 1:30p to my mother telling me I needed to go pick my sister up, but since I didn't have the van I needed to get my father to come to Spring Hill, get me, and drive back to work so I could drive to IHS and get my sister, then take her to a psych appointment in Brentwood. So everything was fine and dandy and then I got lost. Very lost. Extremely, horribly, terribly lost. I eventually got my sister to her appointment, but only after an hour of driving all the way up to Nashville after I missed a turn and her getting mad at me for singing. Oh, it was lovely. She actually grabbed my iPod and threw it at me, yelling, "FUCK YOU BITCH!" It was shocking, to say the least. Of course, when I finally left to go back to Franklin, I got stuck in rush hour. Basically, IT WAS AWFUL.

Thank the Lord, though, Aaron asked me to hang out with him and Caitland, which was really awesome. :) We watched (some people would call it stalking, but whatever) pretty boys at the mall, then chilled at Starbucks for awhile. It was good to finally talk. Really talk.

Then the drive home. . . Oh dear.
I got lost.
Really, really, really lost.

On my way back from Cool Springs, I took a wrong turn and ended up in Columbia. In my defense, though, it was dark and rainy! And my windows kept fogging up! I can't help that I'm so hot! I eventually found my way home, though, so it was all good. Even though I used like half a tank of gas just today.

I'm now sitting with my father, reading FML while he watches trailers for upcoming scary movies.

My life is weird. Very, very weird.

Um.

I just spent twenty minutes explaining Photoshop to my mother.

All she cared about was making her boobs bigger.

She is so weird.

From this:


To this:

Please

tell me about your life.

I don't want to be kept in the dark anymore.

I don'd feel like writing anything of worth.

So instead, I'm just going to give this guy a cookie:


I'm actually baking cookies and brownies sometime this week. Orange Dreams and Dulce de Leche blondies, OH MY!

I Love Garden State.

New Slang (Album) - The Shins

I know, everyone already knows this song, but I DON'T CARE.

I LOVE IT.

"I know it hurts. That's life. If nothing else, it's life. It’s real, and sometimes it fuckin’ hurts, but it's sort of all we have."

I'll be honest, I don't feel like blogging, but I don't want to regret not writing about today.

I had such a good day. It wasn't necessarily because good things happen, but because I was so. . . Happy. Although good things certainly did happen!


EDIT: Heh. I never did write about that day. Though it was a good 'un!

WOOOO.

Today started really badly. Gahhh I was positive the rest of the day was going to suck. I woke up early to write the rest of my paper, and ended up being thirty minutes late to class. Turns out my professor was having someone else sit in today and the guy was a total douchebag. I wanted to gouge his eyes out with a staple.

But my day got a whole lot better after pedicures with the roomies! It was so fun, and my toes look so pretty! Althoughthe ladies there were douchebags and I have decided that I do not like Asian languages. They're so. . . Violent. Bleh. Later, Kelley and I went to CRU, so I got my Jesus on, which rocked. :) And now we're all going to do jello shots? Yeah, I don't know. I guess Kayla and Megan are pregaming. It is Thirsty Thursday, after all.

I just realized how contradicting my evening has been. Pah, whatever.

I'm having fun!

A calling of sorts.

Wavin Flag - Knaan


When I get older, I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom, just like a wavin' flag


I love this song.


I really feel that God is calling me to go to Africa. I don't know how He wants to send me over there, but He has put the African people on my heart and I want nothing more than to go over there and help them however I can.

I'm listening, Lord.
Just tell me what to do.

My song.

Come Around - Rhett Miller

"I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life,
Unless you come around, so come around. . ."

Yep. Seriously, Mr. FBOHOSLT (Future Boyfriend Or Husband Or Something Like That), get over here. Now.

FOUR DAYS.

OH MAN.
I have more new stuff for you!

Dreaming Of You - The Coral

Today it's a double whammy. W00T!!1!11

Fighting For My Love - Nil Lara

I wasn't able to sleep until 5:30a which was so fawesome. Thankfully I don't have French anymore, so I slept until 1:00p? Yeah. I love college. I went to Anthro and Maps today, and since I'm all out of Adderall, I was completely unable to pay attention, which kinda sucked. I thought about writing people letters, but every time I get out pen and paper, my mind goes completely blank. I think I'll just listen to some Postal Service and draw crazy psychodelic stuff. Which reminds me:

AARON. I NEED YOUR ADDRESS BECAUSE I'M GOING TO SEND YOU SOMETHING.

Mmkay, continuing. Man, my mind is ALL OVER THE PLACE today. Then again, my mind is just really weird. Ooh, examples!

• The kandi Brittany just sent me makes me think of Play-Doh which makes me think of Mrs. Kleesath which makes me think of middle school which makes me think of ADD which makes me think of depression;
• Looking at my Bible makes me think of the beach which makes me think of my cousins which makes me think of Peoria which makes me think of Kroger;
• Kayla's straightener makes me think of Homecoming '04 which makes me think of moving to Nashville which makes me think of graphic design which just made me think of beer.

As if I needed any more proof that I'm hella weird!

PEACE BROTHAS. And sistas. And lumberjacks (you know who you are).

I've had a surprisingly good evening, for not having done anything at all.

I hung out with Jess, which wasn't too bad. We stopped by Smoothie King, then went back to her place to order a pizza and watch Pirates of the Caribbean. She ended up straightening my hair. I don't really know why, but hey, if that's what she wants to do and it doesn't bother me, then I'm cool with it. I did end up with a sweet Smoothie King tattoo. They were free!

I'm a winner!

Grawr. So now I'm sipping on a weird but really good vanilla chai/hot chocolate mix and getting ready to watch Nacho Libre. Because I need some funny in my life. Not Jess' "I'm an attention whore" faux-funny. Real funny.

Goodnight, friendzorz. I hope you had a good day, too, and if you didn't, you know how to reach me. :)