Hey children.

Life has been full of the highest highs and the lowest lows lately.
From the best news in the world to the feeling the saddest I've ever been.

I've been thinking about this plan I have for the rest of my life, and I'm wondering if maybe I should scrap that plan.
Maybe, instead of thinking out everything I do, I should just surrender everything to the Big Guy. Instead of planning to graduate in 2012, get into UTK's grad anthro program, then work in a museum or with the FBI as soon as I can, well, maybe I should just plan to do what makes me happy. I don't know what will make me happiest in ten years, so instead of deciding what I think should make me happiest, maybe I should just follow my heart.

I've never been very good at that. Following my heart. I prefer to hear other people's suggestions, then decide what sounds best. Maybe I don't trust my heart. Maybe I wish I didn't have to deal with my heart. But it's there, and it's going to be, so I'm thinking that for once in my life, I should listen to what it's telling me.

It's late, and I know that in the morning, I'll ask myself what the point of this was, but right now?

I feel better.

I've been feeling very lonely lately, and I wish I understood why.

It's not like I don't spend time with my friends. I guess I just want to spend more time with them. I can't get enough of them, I really can't.

The thing is, I'm pretty sure they've gotten more than enough of me.

Blaaahhhh.