Ayyyyy.

Dude, my lips hurt. They're cracked and keep bleeding and ewww.

Today basically sucked.

I had a French exam at 10:00, and I guess I turned my alarm off in my sleep because I woke up at 9:45. Not too bad, leaves me ten minutes to get ready and five to get to class, but still. I hate waking up late. So I get dressed and everything and check my cell phone and it's 10:50. Turns out that last night as I was setting my alarm clock, I'd been so sleepy that I'd changed the actual TIME, not just the alarm.

AWESOME.
HOW. FREAKING. AWESOME.

So I missed an exam. Not just a day of lecture and notes, an actual EXAM. I was so furious with myself. In fact, I still am. Luckily, I was able to convince Mme Sturzer that I was sick, and she's going to let me make it up tomorrow. Seriously. I just don't see how you can deny the existence of God when amazing stuff like that happens. Anyway.
Anthropology, blah blah blah, boring boring boring, test on Monday, woo hoo, yada yada yada.

Then I basically spent the rest of my night here. Kindasortanotreally doing homework. Talking online with people. Browsing music blogs and finding new music (!!!!).

OH about those music blogs:
I found a ton of covers. Katy Perry doing MGMT, Lily Allen covering Britney Spears, etc. I also got a bunch of mash-ups: Lil' Wayne + The Benders, T.I. + Ben Folds, Britney Spears + Bloc Party, and all over wonderfully delicious music casseroles.
YAY MUSIC.

Confusion.

The first time we've talked in four days.

Ten minutes.

Three spent watching Andrew play with the camera.
Two spent actually talking.
Five spent just sitting there, doing nothing.


Is this what our friendship has come to?

I think this is my first bad day in a week.

Dude, Pandora is the shiz. I've been listening to it all day, and it's basically awesome.

Other than that, today kinda sucked. My best friend hasn't talked to me in like four days, but whatever. I'll move on. If she wants to throw away two and a half years of friendship, well, she has every right to do so.

It still hurts.
I still don't know why.
I still wish I could do something to repair it.

But at this rate, it just doesn't look like it's going to happen.

As for stuff that actually happened today, I went to French completely unprepared and felt like a fucking moron. Sometimes I completely understand it, other days it's like trying to make sense out of gibberish. Today was one of the latter days. AWESOME.
Then Anthropology. I tried, really tried to pay attention, but after awhile I just couldn't do it anymore. My professor just goes on and on and on about stupid shit, and then the hippies join the conversation, which is okay, I don't mind people speaking their mind, but when they just won't drop it? That's when it bothers me. And it was about breastfeeding, of all things. Some girl tried to start a debate about fucking BREASTFEEDING. Who the hell does that? Grrrr.
Finally, Maps. I had a test, and while I don't think I completely failed, I definitely don't think I got higher than a B. That class is so awful. Nothing but maps, and I have never given a shit about maps.

Now I have to prepare for English and Western Humanities tomorrow. I seriously hate all of these GenEd classes. I already know what I want to do; why can't I just start studying it?


Good news: I know that I want to go to graduate school, and I'm going to try for UTK. They have the best forensic anthropology program in the world (yay Body Farm), and so it only makes sense that I go there. I just need to have fucking amazing grades. . . Jesus. Good luck to me.

I'm off to drown my frustrations with Ben and Jerry, my two favorite men in the world.

kthxbai.

My first alcoholic experience, woo hoo.

So last night I drank alcohol for the first time ever.

I was coerced into playing Chandeliers. If you don't know what that is, here's a run-down:

• Everyone who's playing has a designated cup filled with about a fifth of beer. These cups are arranged in a circle around one cup completely filled with beer.
• Players take turns bouncing a quarter into the cups, aiming for the center cup. If the quarter bounces into one of the cups on the outside, the person whose cup it landed in has to drink it (the beer, not the quarter!).
• The goal is to bounce the quarter into the center cup. When that happens, everyone must down their drink as fast as possible, then flip their cup over, top-down. The last person to do this has to chug the beer in the center.

Basically, it's a way to get a lot of people drunk really fast. Lucky for me, though, I only had to drink my beer three times, so it really wasn't very much. After I played Chandeliers, I didn't drink anymore for the rest of the night, even though some guy tried to talk me into a funneling a beer. When I refused, he called me a bitch and then promised to get me "fucked up" next time I go to the frat house. It kinda pissed me off, until Kelley reminded me that he most likely won't even remember me.

I won't lie, it was really fun watching the guys play beer pong, talking to drunk people, playing Chandeliers, and just experiencing a college party. However, I'm still upset that I can no longer say I've never drank before. I was really proud of myself for it, and I think from now on I'll just say I'm the DD. At any rate, I am glad that I'm nothing more than a social drinker. I seriously plan on never, ever getting drunk, because I refuse to allow anyone or anything but ME control myself. Alcohol really isn't all it's cracked up to be. Sobriety is much, much more fun, and I plan to experience nothing but that.

Seriously.

FML.

F*ck. My. Life.

It's one of those I-hate-everything days.


The good news is that my mommy and daddy are coming to see me in Chattanooga. :)
I've missed them more than I'm willing to admit.

Progress?

EEEEEEE.
I'm really happy. :D

So. I was supposed to go running with Kelley at 7, but when my alarm went off, I just rolled over and went back to sleep. When I woke up again, it was 10:30. My French class started at 10:00 and lasted for fifty minutes. It takes me about twenty minutes to get ready. There was no way in hell I was going to make it to class, so I just skipped.

Fast forward about an hour. . . I had an appointment with Dr. Lavin at noon. I have to walk to his office, and it's about a mile away. I step outside, and I'm greeted by rain and wind. Lots and lots of wind. The kind of wind that blows you into the next city. The entire time I was holding onto my umbrella, praying it wouldn't flip inside-out, especially since I love this umbrella. I bought it on sale, and it's the awesome kind that opens and closes with the press of a button. Anyway, I got to Dr. Lavin's, and I had a really great session. Apparently I'm making more progress than he'd ever expected, and he said that I have more hope than others of being truly happy, which consequently made me very happy! :) We got done, and I step outside, and the rain and wind has just disappeared. The sun is shining, it's warmed up a bit, and I can't stop smiling. Walking home, I smiled at everyone I passed, and I felt absolutely amazing.

The feeling hasn't waned at all today. I feel fantastic.

:

Meet my friends.

I'll probably talk about these people a lot, so here's a little breakdown of who's who.
I love all of them more than they'll ever know.

Michaela
My baby sister and best friend. She is one of the best people I know, and even though she's younger than me, I still consider her a role model.

Brittany
One of my best friends in Tennessee. We met by our Rocketdogs, and since then she's been the person that knows me best.

Dani
The love of my life until a boyf/husband comes around. She sees the good in everyone, and loves me despite my flaws. I miss her more than anyone knows.

Madi
My twin! Seriously, we're freakishly similar. She just gets me like no one else does. I know I can tell her anything without worrying about her thinking I'm crazy.

Christy
The first person to be nice to me in a new town. She is a beautiful person, inside and out, and she always tells me what I need to hear, in the way I need to hear it.

Pookie
The silliest of all my friends. Although she can act like a child (the good, fun kind), she is still mature beyond her years. Her pure devotion to God is something I can only aspire to.

Aaron
The flamer that I'm hopelessly in love with. ;) We used to hate each other, but now that we've matured, I've found that he's someone I can trust, and hopefully he feels the same about me.

Kelley
My super awesome roommate! At first it was really awkward living together, but the more I get to know her, the more I love her. She's one of the funniest people I know, and if not for her, I'd barely survive living with my other roommates.


I think that's it for now.
I'm off to finish reading The Odyssey; boo!