Sometimes, I feel like I was given the wrong body.
My legs are too short, my nose too round, my tummy too chubby, and my feet too wide.
In fact, I feel betrayed by my body.
It won't do what I want it to do.
It doesn't fit me.
Don't I have a beautiful soul? I feel I have a beautiful, old soul.
Why doesn't my body match? Why is it not beautiful, too?
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My legs are too short, my nose too round, my tummy too chubby, and my feet too wide.
In fact, I feel betrayed by my body.
It won't do what I want it to do.
It doesn't fit me.
Don't I have a beautiful soul? I feel I have a beautiful, old soul.
Why doesn't my body match? Why is it not beautiful, too?
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Everything feels so surreal right now.
Sometimes, I wish I had wings so I could run to the balcony or open the window, jump, spread my wings, and soar away.
Soar away from everything and everyone and everywhere.
There is a wonderful person inside me who is going to change the world.
She will help others. She will make a difference. She will teach and learn and preach and yearn and do all kinds of wonderful things, but.
She won’t come out. She’s hiding in my heart, in my mind, in my soul, and sometimes she takes a little peek, but she’s too afraid. Too afraid that people might not like her after all. Too afraid that she’s not that wonderful.
Too afraid she’ll fail everything and everyone and everywhere…
Hey! I've seen that girl before!
ReplyDeleteI think she's one of the cutest people ever and when she talks about her aspirations in life it's like hearing the first sounds of spring!
I know she can change the world!
but does she?